I’m a lousy friend!

I'm a lousy friend. I don't get in touch, I say no and I don't think I have time. I misprioritize. Simply for reasons that I do not understand myself. It's like every spare minute I have from work is already booked or I just don't have the energy to take in more than I have to. Still, there are friends in my life, strangely enough. These adorable creatures who somehow know me unconditionally and put up with my lousy anti-social behavior. I'm not the fussy and affirming type, and I've never written something as simple and obvious as a Christmas card in my entire life, and yet I've received quite a few of them myself and been infinitely happy every time. Especially the Christmas cards that were completely personal. Everything from photos to embroidery to self-made puzzles and paintings. My mother made personalized Christmas cards drawn by herself for many years. She put a lot of solid work into this and I remember it being talked about a lot. Her nice Christmas card.. and me who never wrote any but still have friends. Well, one of my absolute closest friends lives very far away, but she's actually the one I see most often. At times we have met almost every week. We have known each other for over 30 years. She has never met my children and only once has she stumbled across the person who became the father of those children. It was well drunk and wild at a Lunda carnival in the early 90s, I want to remember. Hello Hello!

This is a really fantastic relationship. We see each other, laugh and cry intensely and then we go home to our lives again. This awesome valve is absolutely priceless to me and I am just as happy every time we see each other. We follow each other's ups and downs with full focus. There is always time here and we know that our conversation will continue shortly. I know for sure that our relationship would not have been what it is if we lived in the same part of the world or maybe even as neighbors. I'm lucky to be allowed to share a very large part of my life with her, even though she barely met my better half or met my besties. Now I can't promise anything to anyone but I will try to gather more of my friends and maybe not write Christmas cards but at least send a signal. You should be afraid of your friends. My grandmother said periodically that it was time to go out recruiting. They all die, she said, so I have to recruit new friends.